In her series UCP, Dutch photographer Laura Hospes portrays herself going through difficult times, dealing with severe depression and suicidal thoughts. Her self-portraits are a direct representation of her emotions, which she is not able to show in the so-called real life. For Hospes, her camera is a companion, listening to her moods and offering her comfort better than anyone else. In her photographs, she shares the heavy emotions and loneliness she experiences, allowing the viewer to feel her pain and anxiety, even if it is just a fraction her emotional state, and a snapshot of a single moment. She feels driven by the necessity to connect with people, making herself feel a little less alone. She uses the medium of photography in a therapeutic way, to accept and process the many struggles in her life. The resulting black-and-white images are intense and arresting. Portraying her bodily misery, she lets the viewer get a glimpse of her mind. Currently, two years after UCP, Hospes is looking back on this difficult period in her life and working on a photographic project about healing, caring for herself and growing into the woman that she is and what that means to her in terms of strength, beauty and femininity. And being proud of that.
Laura Hospes (1994, NL) graduated with honor from the Fotoacademie in Amsterdam in 2016 and lives and works in the Netherlands.